Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in Lindsay's LiveJournal:

Thursday, August 1st, 2002
11:31 am	I really need to start writing about things the day they actually happen. If I do that, then things will be more fresh on my mind. I will write later tonight about things that happened today. Now, I'm gonna write about yesterday. I don't know why I have to make this thing so fucking complicated. Worked sucked yesterday. Jess wasn't there so time went by so slow! I dozed off a couple times, boring shit like that. I finally watched my movie. Vanilla Sky. I don't know why Aaron didn't like it. I thought the twist at the end was great. It was a really different movie. Jess called me and wanted to know if I wanted to go to the school pool with her. It was nice, we just chilled out in the pool and talked for awhile. I dropped Danny back off at the house at 3:30 because I wanted to smoke a cigg. We seen Chris, Brett, and Daran walking down the street. I decided to pull over and have Jess ask them for a cigg. Chris was the only one that talked. My boyfriend Brett didn't say anything to me either. I was kind of upset. I always have has the feeling that Daran never liked me. I don't really know why either. Ohh well he's not important. I came home and didn't do shit until like 7. I took my car to the car wash and picked up some things from the store for my mom. Brett called me late last night. It was almost 1. We had a pretty good conversation. He was online and I decided to just talk to him on the computer. I feel bad, like I'm sending him the wrong vibes or something. I want to hang out with him because he seems like a really cool person. I know that Aaron wouldn't approve though. I really want to make Aaron happy. I don't know what's going on with me. Some wacky shit. Well I think I'm going to go to the bank pretty soon. I need to start saving money again. I'm probably gonna stop by the video store and pick something up, and I need to get gas. Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 31st, 2002
6:27 am	I didn't have any time to write last night. I basically fell asleep right after I got home. Work went by so fast yesterday because Jess was there early and I had someone to talk to the whole time. I miss her so much. I wish we were as close as we use to be. She was telling me how Anthony is fucking with all of us again. Him and Andrew got into a big fight Monday night. Anthony told him how much he still cares about Jess and how Andrew doesn't treat her right. He also told Andrew that Jess needs to learn how to take hints. I guess me and Lacey give Jess all these hints that we don't want to be her friend anymore and don't like hanging out with her. I hate it when he has to make shit up about me. The best part that he made up was that me and Lacey hang out with Adeline all the time and when we do were always talking shit about Jess. If I was to confront him about all this I know exactly what he would say. That's not true Andrew is making it up to make me look like the bad guy. Later on that same night Anthony must have told his mom that the reason DCSI isn't hiring him back is because Jess's mom Crystal is telling everyone not to hire him. She called up Jess's house and had a fucking fit to Andrew on the phone. She told him that if she ever finds out that's the truth then Jess isn't allowed at her house anymore and a whole bunch of other bullshit. The only reason that Anthony wouldn't get hired back is because the last time he worked there, he quit. And in the process of quiting he proceeded to call a couple supervisors bitched and whores. Hmm, I think that's a pretty good reason not to hire someone back. Ohh another thing, Crystal doesn't even get along with the lady that is in charge of hiring people. So I don't really think that what Crystal has to say is going to influence her decision on who to hire. Me and Jess went outside at break because I wanted to smoke and it was really warm out. I ate half of my BLT, put the other half on top of my car so I could get my ciggs, and the fucking thing blew away. I was so pissed. I was so hungry. When I went to pick up Danny today my cousin Katie was at my grandma's house and she wanted to know if she could spend time at our house. Lol, ohh man that was a mistake. Danny and her were bickering all afternoon. I decided that I was going to take them to the pool because it was really hot out and I thought it might calm them down. We found a dead butterfly in my car. It was really pretty so I thought I would stick it in my book and save it. Well when I did that, it's guts and all that other good shit from the inside came out and got all over the pages. Kinda gross. I couldn't fucking stand it at the pool. It was so damn sunny out and I couldn't see a fucking thing. There was so shade either, I'm sure I got burned pretty bad. I dropped Katie back off at my grandma's afterward and picked up Lacey. I hooked her up with someone that could buy her ciggs. When I got home Aaron called me and when I told him Lacey was here he got all pissy because I knew he thought I was going to go to Vestal. Well I did end up going, but I didn't tell him that. We left as soon as my mom got home. Lacey was telling me all about her uhh guy friend Zack. She told me how hot he was and stuff. Well when I seen him I could have slapped her. He looked similar to Anthony!!! I couldn't believe it. He was really into computers and knew alot about them. We watched Mallrats so that wasn't too bad. I love that movie, it's great. Other than that it was pretty boring. We decided to go for a ride with him so we could all smoke a cigg. Me and Lacey wanted some bottled water so we stopped at this little shity gas station outside of Vestal or some shit like that. Heh, Terry's new girlfriend works there. I didn't recognize her but Lacey did. She's pretty ugly. It makes me so happy when I see my Ex's with chicks that are ugly. Makes me feel good about myself. That's pretty shallow I guess. Lacey kind of made me mad because I'm getting the impression that she is playing Zack and Tommy. She broke up with Tommy and told him that she doesn't know what she wants. So he is basically waiting around for her because he's young and doesn't know any better. She wants to get with Zack but is not too sure that Zack wants to get with her. So I'm thinking that Tommy is her fall back plan. We went to Burger King when we left his house. The one that Terry, Dan, and Stubb all work at. Man, that place is fucking scrubby. It took them 20 fucking minutes to get us our food. Come to find out they only gave me 4 chicken tenders instead of 5. I don't plan on eating there anymore. I shouldn't have expected it to be any better than that considering all of the fucking scumbags that work there. On the way home me and Lacey got talking about people getting pregnant, abortions, and sex. It was one of the deepest talks we have had in awhile. I rented Vanilla Sky when I got back home but fell asleep before I got a chance to watch it. I had my computer running for 4 hours this morning while I was at work, and only one person talked to me. I think that's sad. I need to make more online friends or something. Well I think I'm going to go and watch my movie, call Aaron... something like that. I will write later. Current Mood: determined (Comment on this)
Monday, July 29th, 2002
9:06 pm	I wasn't too impressed with Sex in the City last night. It wasn't as entertaining as usual. I thought this new season was going to be great because the first episode was hilarious. Zack got sprayed by a skunk last night, now the whole house carries a nasty skunk smell. My mom told me she went to the creek to give him a bath, but he still reeks. Work went by relatively fast. I dozed off a couple times the first two hours. It was all good though, I have had worse days. I went to Aaron's house after work. When I got there, there was a vehicle I figured but have been Aaron's. I'm really glad that he found a car he really like. It was only $800.00 too! I can't wait until he gets his license. Maybe we will be able to see each other more. I got a pack of ciggs from Aaron's friend Adam today. Yay, it seems like it's been a while since I have had my own pack. We ate at Burger King today and talked to Dan while he was getting ready for work. It pisses me off that Aaron sympathizes with him because his most recent girlfriend has been playing him. Hmm, if I remember correctly, Dan just got done playing her and another girl at the same time. He just got a taste of his own medicine. I'm so glad that I don't have to worry about Aaron doing anything like that to me. I know he wouldn't. He's too good of a person to do anything like that to anyone. God, I love that kid soo much! When I came home from Binghamton tonight, I noticed that I got a sunburn. I can't believe that by sitting outside to eat for 10 minutes could have burned me. I guess I really do have fair skin! I talked to Lacey online tonight. I swear the only time that girl talks to me is when she needs a ride somewhere. Go figure. She's not going out with Tommy anymore, and wanted a ride to Vestal to her new boyfriend Zack's house. If Aaron wasn't working tomorrow, I would take her. I don't really think that hanging out with her and her boyfriend would be too much fun anyways. She also told me that Brett told her that he has been trying to hook up with me. I guess he really was being serious when he asked me out. I would love to be his friend because he seems like a really cool person. There is no way I'm ready to fuck up everything between me and Aaron anyways. I really need to get reading my book. I planned on finishing it by tomorrow, but it's doubtful. I can't read it for long periods of time. It's a great book but I can only read a little at a time. Not like V.C. Andrews. Well I suppose this entry is long enough now, I'm content. Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 28th, 2002
5:24 pm	I got home from Sidney a little while ago. I got some school supplies, socks, and a pair of $3.00 sandals I know I'm never going to wear. I get to see Aaron tomorrow! YAY! I want to see the car he might get but he's sure I'm going to pick on it. I really don't have much room to talk anyways. I only have a 1996 Ford Contour. It was free and in good condition so I guess I shouldn't bitch too much. It's a great car for a 16 year old. Ohh and I love standards. I need to go and read my book (Interview With the Vampire) it's due back on Tuesday and I just want to finish it by then so I won't have to re-sign it out. I want to read some new books too! I took a bunch more of them little quiz things. It's crazy how some of them can you can relate to and others you just can't. Which era in time are you? Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
5:15 pm	What's *Your* Sex Sign? (Comment on this)
5:14 pm	Haha...this one just might fit!! (Comment on this)
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Saturday, July 27th, 2002
9:59 pm	Thankfully Cassidy liked me! She liked me so much when her mom and dad got home she cried because she didn't want me to leave. Lets see, we did a lot of things together today. We played dolls, Barbies, dollhouse, and she gave me a makeover! She's a really cool little girl. The wedding was actually awful. I hope my wedding turns out nothing like that. It was so tacky. Cassidy's mom and dad got home pretty early. I guess they didn't do everything they planned on doing and got home at 9. I miss Aaron so much, but it's alright because I will just see him on Monday. I think I'm going to go to Sidney with my mom tomorrow to get Danny some school clothes. Maybe I will get some socks from K-mart or something. I think I'm gonna try and sleep a little bit before Aaron gets home from shopping with his mom. Ohh yeah I almost forgot. I think Aaron's parents are going to buy him a Dodge Shadow on Monday. It's 1700. He likes it though, he's happy that he won't have to depend on other people for rides anymore. Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
11:59 am	I'm such a bad person. I didn't write yesterday. Thursday night, my mom told me I could go see Aaron on Friday when she got out of work. That made me so happy. I guess the problem was she needed someone to watch my little brother and with Mandy in Florida she didn't have anyone. So I went to see Aaron yesterday and I had a good time like I always do. We got talking about stuff that went on when we first liked each other and how we acted around each other. I thought it was really nice. Wow, Jess is online. I don't see her online anymore. I wonder what she's doing? I need to go babysit in an hour. I'm getting a little nervous because I am going to be spending 12 hours with a little girl I never met before. I hope she likes me. I'm going to bring her to the wedding today. She knows my little cousins Kristen and Katie. So I'm sure she should have a good time there. Aaron might be getting a car today or in the next couple days so that's cool. I will probably write later tonight when I get home to tell how my day went. Current Mood: nervous (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 25th, 2002
7:09 pm	I think these things are so cute! you are a book called what dr. seuss book warped you?</center (Comment on this)
6:51 pm	I feel like one miserable bitch right now. My mom has been such a fucking bitch lately. I don't know what's with her. I asked her if I could go see Aaron tomorrow because I'm not going to be able to on Saturday, I have to babysit. She's like I don't think so. She told me that I could go to Binghamton twice a week. What the fuck then? She pisses me off so bad. I really can't wait until I graduate. I need to get out of this house and out from under my asshole parents control. I can't believe how ignorant they are. Thank god I didn't turn out like either of them. I don't know what to do. Aaron is going to be all pissed off because he told me earlier he didn't think I was going to be able to. I was sure it wasn't going to be a problem. I shouldn't expect very much from my mom though. I didn't do a fucking thing today except clean my car out. It makes me all happy when my car is all cleaned out. Maybe it doesn't look like such a piece of shit or something. Just not too sure. Current Mood: irritated Current Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers-By the Way album (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 24th, 2002
9:19 pm	I gots to pee! Aaron is still all pissed off because I read him that email. He told me that if he read something like that to me that I would do the same thing. That's where he is wrong. I actually have some trust in him, in our relationship. I just wish that feeling was mutual sometimes. I re-arranged my room today. Just felt like a change I guess. I like it a lot, makes my room feel larger. I read quite a bit of my book today. I'm very proud of myself. Heh, this is some crazy shit. This dude from a credit card company called my mom today and told her that someone from Oregon has been consistently using her credit card in Sears. We live in Ny, it just doesn't make sense. Everyone is guessing it's some sort of con artist. Haha, my mommy is getting screwed over. Mandy came over and talked to me for a little while. She is leaving for Florida tomorrow morning for 10 days. Aaron got all pissy because I apparently wasn't paying any attention to him on the phone, he basically hung up on me. I think that when we don't get to see each other very often (me and Aaron) that we start to get bitchy toward one another. It always happens around the same time each week. I talked to Brett for a little while today. I really want to tell him that I'm not interested in him, but I'm afraid he won't want to be friends anymore. I guess if he's like that, I don't need a friend like him anyways. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Hoobastank (Comment on this)
1:35 pm	I fell asleep yesterday while reading my book. I woke up when I heard the phone ring, looked at the clock and it was 7:15. Aaron was on the phone and I was all confused because I thought it was the following morning and I was late for work. Everything was all good though. I only slept for 4 hours, not 16. I had an interesting conversation with Brett last night. He wrote me an email when I got offline. hey whats up?i thought id e mail you since you said it would make you happy.So whats you doing?im jus mad bored and i really wanna go out with you...and i dont want you to think im desperate or anything because ive liked you forever or what not and if i didnt think it was worth it i would have stopped by now but i really think me and you would have a good relationship and im not bullshitting you.i knwo you dont really know me or anything but i know that if you get to know me that youd want to at least try.And i understand why you want to get to know me first or whatever so im not really mad about it...i was just mad because you werent beliveving me.Anyways...when do you wanna hang out and what do you want to do...its really all up too you,alright.i deffinitely wanna hang out tho so write back.Well im going now. later Too bad he can't spell huh? I read it to Aaron today and I think he was pissed off. He knows that I would never break up with him for someone else. He is too perfect for me. I wish that he wouldn't always think the worst about things and be positive for a change. Work went by fast again for me today. I went and picked up breakfast for our department. I don't think I would mind doing that again. It just means I get to take an extra long break. I don't really have too much else to write about. I will try and write later. Maybe something interesting will happen by then. Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 23rd, 2002
3:26 pm	sup mah dawg I'm soo bored :( I have been taking these little quiz things I found in some other chicks journal. It's funny how none of these really fit me. Staind's second album was great, but the third sucked. I suppose the Jelly Belly's one was pretty close. I'm sure as hell not goth though. That one cracked me up. When I went out to lunch with my mom we got hit be a really bad thunder storm and it was raining wicked hard. The electricity went out for a little while. Nothing like eating in the dark at a resturant. I had a good chicken salad sandwich. Uhh can't you tell I'm bored? I'm talking about food. Aaron's finally going to take his road test. August 23rd. I hope he passes! I'm sure he will. He's a good driver. After I post my results from those quizzes I think I'm going to go read my book. Interview with the Vampire. It's so much better than the movie. I thought the movie was excellent too! Alright... later. CENTER> Take the The "What Teen Label Do You Fit Into Most?" Quiz! by antiperfect</center> What Jelly Belly flavor are you? I'm - Find your flavor here! Current Mood: dorky (Comment on this)
11:51 am	Oops I forgot to mention earlier that my big hermit crab died yesterday! My mom was raggin on me about it so bad. She told me that she's going to call every pet store around the area and have me banned from buying anything because I always kill them. Hermit crabs are so boring though, sometimes I just forget I have them and don't feed or water them for a week. I still have my little one, and I vow to take care of it. Work went by pretty fast today. I got to do my old job again! I wish I could just do that every day because it makes the time go by so fast. I'm going to go out to lunch with my mom right now so I guess I will write later. Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)
6:36 am	Ohh no she's got the shits.... When I created this journal I was determined to write in it everyday. I didn't have any time to write in it yesterday! It's all good though because I have like 15 minutes this morning to write before I have to go to work. FUN! Hmm...yesterday. I got out of work like 20 minutes early because we ran out. I went to Aarons house and we didn't do much of anything except hang around his house fooling around and stuff. I'm so proud of myself... I took my first shower with a guy yesterday! When his parents left, he talked me into taking a shower with him, even though his brother was home... :x It was pretty awesome actually. I don't feel like such an uptight pussy girl anymore. I took my mom up to the pond last night b/c she has never been up there since we moved here. She really wasn't too impressed. I love it up there, it's really peaceful. In her opinion, it smells. I'm kinda looking forward to my Uncle Tony's wedding this weekend. I think it's going to be very interesting. Nothing big and fancy, but im sure something interesting is going to happen. I suppose this is all I have to write about right now. I suppose to should head into work now. Uhhhh hopefully my 4 hours will go by really fast! Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 21st, 2002
11:05 pm	Fucking Hostile!!! I'm having so much fun right now. Argueing with Chris, just like old times. I can't believe I stayed with that pathetic excuse for a person for so long. He's soo immature. I went to the store today to buy some tooth glue for my mom and dad, lol, and there was this fucked up guy there. When I was walking back to my car this guy with a beer was standing right next to my car and I had to excuse myself to get in because he apparently didn't know I was trying to get in or something. He asked me if it was my car and I was like Yeah...he told me he was protecting my car from niggers. Lol, it was great. He said that you can't trust all the niggers around the area. I found that really amusing. Aaron got out of work an hour early and called. I guess shit is cool between the two of us. It always works out like that though. I get to go see him tommorrow!! I love him so much. I'm considering giving my Hermit Crabs away to Mandy. I don't know why though. She would probably forget to take care of them more than I do. I guess I'm going to get going now because I need to get up early and go to work. Oops, I hope it doesn't rain tonight cause I left my car windows up....heh later. Current Mood: indifferent (Comment on this)
4:01 pm	What would you say? Today was the last day of the Lumberjack Festival. I only went down to the fair for like an hour earlier this afternoon. I got some cheezy fries and watched a karate demonstration with Mandy, ohh yeah I wore my Hooters shirt down there. Aaron got all pissy with me this morning before he went into work. I think he's pissed off because I have spent all of this weekend down at the fair. I don't understand why he is always so cranky though. Me n Mandy have just been chillin at my house not really doing anything too much. We watched Empire records a little while ago. Good shit. I'm wicked tired right now so I just might go and take a nap for a little while. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Eminem...LOL (Comment on this)